Empty
as I am I reach for alcohol
And
find only water
I
reach for tobacco and fire and earth and ash
But
find only water
And
my heart is a rock
Granite
and storm winds
A
cold cave
Exposed
And
electricity within the cloud
Is
blocked
Something
in the way
Stopping
Stopping
Disconnected
and torn and
Far
above it all I am
Untethered
Lilting
And
I reach for dark red or
Clear
spirit
And
find only water
I
reach out for pain or anger or solace
But
find only water
And
it quenches nothing
And
is unsatisfying
And
men pray to small gods
And
kill for small gods
Deluded
as to their time here
the words begin to falter
Trapped
within lightning
And
I resent the world you
Chose
to leave behind.