13 Nov 2018

Alternatives




Cutting through a bagel, I recalled the girl stood next to me
At the checkout earlier that day and slipped with the knife

Straight down rather than a slice
A solid full-blade thunk into the palm of my hand

The metal didn’t hurt but embedded its smooth edge
Deep into the flesh stopping on the bone

She had purple eye shadow that intentionally matched
Her purple leather satchel bag

I found this for some reason unsettling
Even more so than her sideways resemblance to Isabella Rossellini

I stare at people too long, I thought. But what else is there to do?

I leaned my weight on the handle seeing how far I could get the knife
Until the pain started, but it went all the way through

I was just stood there dripping blood - half a hand on the counter
As people came in to make their grey coffee and dead sandwiches

They didn’t seem to notice. Or if they did
Nobody said a god damn thing about it to
Me.








30 Aug 2018

All that happened today



The end of summer smells exactly like the
Start

I have a nose for these things
Always have

A chemical released by
Those of us inclined to anxiety
Synthesising with incoming molecules

Creates a perfume that indicates
Autumns arrival

This event
Along with my brutal killing of a moth
Is all that has happened today.


4 Jul 2018

Bells ring




With freedom comes insanity
Alarms sound
Bells ring
The more acceleration the more
Chaos you generate

Glass breaks
Alarms sound
Bells ring
Voices scream like those
Riding rollercoasters

And people are lost from
Your side
Friends and others and the scum
And villainous
Lost from your side

The faster you go as then
You feel the sleek
Smooth nature of it all
The calm of your own self
All sound having fallen away

And though
Wonderfully alone
Your hands remain held
You heart and mind encapsulated
By your newfound sovereignty